Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Carpenters - I know I need to be in Love



The hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing

There's someone in this crazy world for me

The way that people come and go through temporary lives

My chance could come and I might never know

I used to say "No promises, let's keep it simple"

But freedom only helps you say goodbye

It took a while for me to learn that nothing comes for free

The price I paid is high enough for me

* I know I need to be in love

I know I've wasted too much time

I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world

And fool enough to think that's what I'll find

So here I am with pockets full of good intentions

But none of them will comfort me tonight

I'm wide awake at 4 a.m. without a friend in sight

I'm hanging on a hope but I'm all right

Thursday, April 16, 2009

A reflective song

Every now and then I cry
Every night you keep stayin' on my mind
All my friends say I'll survive
It just takes time

CHORUS
But I don't think time is gonna heal this broken heart
No I don't see how it can if it's broken all apart
A million miracles could never stop the pain
Or put all the pieces together again
No I don't think time is gonna heal this broken heart
No I don't see how it can while we are still apart
And when you hear this song
I hope that you will see
That time won't heal a broken-hearted me

Every day is just the same
Playin' games, different lovers, different names
They keep sayin' I'll survive
It just takes time

CHORUS

Time won't heal a broken-hearted me

Take control !

Grab a hold on yourself !

Damn ! Piggie, be real.
TOY is definitely not interested!

Stop it or otherwise
be a nuisance!

Geez.
Haiz.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Destinations

I want to travel to these faraway lands, if I can

Hongkong

Hoi An

Melbourne

Sydney

San Francisco

Tampa

DC

Bangkok

Manila

,IF I can

Hope(ful)(less)(ing)

Where has piggiewiggie been?

Dreamland is the answer. Cos he found a new toy! Well not exactly toy -toy. But someone.

Let's call that person TOY but sadly, it's one sided, I guess, based on all the signs so far.

That's why I am in dreamland.
TOY probably doesn't know that when TOY replied my messages online or otherwise,
it made my day !

And I would carry this silly grin everyday.

The best would be the said outing we would go on but yet to be realised,
perhaps due to busy work schedules
and hard-to-coincide off days.

Yet, that still gave me hope.

Hope that I will be able to know TOY more.

Hope that I will be able to let TOY know me better.

Hope.

Hopelessly head-over-heels!

Hopelessly kiddish!
(me)

Hopefully it can be real.

Hopefully

Hoping

Hope

Hoping that TOY would finally contact me.
(that would so move me to tears - told ya I am kiddish)

Hope

.sigh.

Piggiewiggie is in dreamland, ain't he?

Hope is all I can do.

.for that strain of romance that can forebear any light in my world.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Family Ties

I always enjoyed meals with my dad.

We would chat about work, catch up, share stories and experiences and of course his occasional naggings about remembering to do things that I should do etc.

Of late, I found more significance in these meal-times. It's a constant reminder of this once young tall and lanky chap who has aged so much. And been in such a large part of both me and sister's lives.

I did, once, catch him with his mind wondering off into the distant... And I speculate that probably could be his wonderance of tee-ing off at his favourite golf course after that lunch with my uncles and close family friends.

In reality, he should. And that is now a priority on the checklist.

The traditional Hainanese kueh below brought back alot of memories (its name is pronounced as "bwah"). They remind me of my late-"beh nian" (wife of my eldest uncle) who made these for special family occasions.

Of Planes, Airports & Madame Tussauds



I thought I should quickly capture this before I forget.

I went to pick up dad from the hotel bar where he is having a catch up session with his long time friends Alex and Arthur.

When I saw the uncles, both of them are obviously pleasantly pleased to have me join them for drinks and their make merry.

As I sit there, so much memories came back.

There were former colleagues of my dad as were many and very close. To date, 40 years of friendship still stand as strong as ever.

If memories serve me right, they were colleagues back in the good old days when airlines are flying out of Paya Lebar Airport. Yes, I vaguely remember that small piece memory in me that I had been there before. The orange brown mushroom counters - now taken over by military staff.

And a forgotten memory is this plane that SIA flew. I guess we are the only asian airline that ever have the Concorde in our fleet before and it operated out of Paya Lebar Airport for a short while.



And then the move to Changi where our iconic ATC tower stood for many years, and still is, and been the backdrop of many accolades garnered over the years of our proud nation. And those were the days when I spent many childhood days running around the airport, visiting my dad after school, during holidays, and being cared for by the many uncles and aunties. I remember as many as I could, uncle michael, pandian, arthur, alex, francis (the-late), matthias and aunty peggy among the many.

We had only Terminal 1 then. But many memories, gosh, flashes of playing around the gallery looking at aircraft being towed out /in, taking off and landing, the huge Boeing 747s mega-tops. The smartly dressed aircrew and cabin crew was the envy of all.

Not forgetting the counter crews, they were also dressed in the beautiful kebayas unlike the typical staff you see at your check in counters now. Travelling was a different experience that time. You can enjoy the light fragrance of real (growing) orchids in the airport during those days. Really !

And my dad's days in the industry was really appreciated by me, for I looked back and thank the divine One, that I had been luckier than alot of kids my time.

It was just before primary school, I had the opportunity to look at the "Queen Elizabeth" at Madame Tussaud's, visited the site where Mary of Scots got beheaded at the Tower, walked across the London Bridge, stood at the spot where Charles and Diana got married at Westminster, looked through a looking glass at the top of Effiel Tower, watched the change of guard parade at Buckingham, plucked my first apricot fruit off the backyard in california, took a ride thru the Magic Mountain, gazed at the mesmerizing Electric Parade at Disney, got splashed at by the orcas at Sea World San Diego, played the arcades at Circus Circus at Las Vegas, shouted into the echoes of the Grand Canyon, looked at the preserved carcass of the polar bear in Alaska..... gosh and i remember that besides the aunties and uncles that went on that month long trip with us, my dad was with me.

And now I began to understand why. Perhaps my dad wanna spend that kind of time with me before I enter formal school and grow up too fast, be a teenage rebel and begin my own life. And that suddenly reminded me how precious it is. Those times together - father and son - overseas, giving me the experience before any kids does. No my family is not wealthy and I could have only enjoyed these privileged because of the labour of my dad in the travel industry.

Now as I look at 3 greying men having their beers, singing along to the live band to their favourite music, sharing with me their stories, reminding me to show up for the Xmas dinner (already?), I am thankful again, once again, and again - for the memories and for the care. To my dad, the love he has for his son.

There are so many lessons I can learn from just this impromptu one night gathering with them. Perhaps in another note.

For now thanks for the memories and I am already looking forward to the Xmas dinner already. It would be great to catch up with Mandy (uncle Alex's daughter) and Kevin (uncle Arthur's son). Excited.