I have always believed in managing expectations. We expect to be this or that.
We expect to be be someone else's dream guy.
We expect ourseleves to meet other's expectations.
Living up to expectations.
Heavy... it can be, if you don't have it easy somehow.
But then, how many times do we realise, we have our own in-born limitations?
I am not saying that we resign to the "what to do, born like that what..." attitude.
That's not putting in effort. Nothing comes by without effort.
I wanna confess that the past 2 weeks have been the worst days of my life.
I allowed myself to wallow in the dumps for the longest time since the days when
I didn't make the cut as a military pilot.
My loss and failures suddenly overwhelmed me.
I let them.
Alone.
Life. Relationship. Career.
All came to a total halt. Crushed.
2 weeks.
And finally I managed to remind myself, I have to manage my own expectations too.
I have also my own limitations.
I reminded myself of my strengths and weaknesses.
I have times when I am not as resilient as I thought myself to be.
I don't know how I could navigate out of this mess.
I will try.
To the best I can, with the resources I have.
As the person I am.
So let me borrow a scripted line from a chick movie I saw long time before.
"You will never be a size 5..."
Hell.
I just make sure I be the sexiest size 10 as I can be.
Today.
26 Nov 2008.
4pm Singapore time.
We expect ourseleves to meet other's expectations.
Living up to expectations.
Heavy... it can be, if you don't have it easy somehow.
But then, how many times do we realise, we have our own in-born limitations?
I am not saying that we resign to the "what to do, born like that what..." attitude.
That's not putting in effort. Nothing comes by without effort.
I wanna confess that the past 2 weeks have been the worst days of my life.
I allowed myself to wallow in the dumps for the longest time since the days when
I didn't make the cut as a military pilot.
My loss and failures suddenly overwhelmed me.
I let them.
Alone.
Life. Relationship. Career.
All came to a total halt. Crushed.
2 weeks.
And finally I managed to remind myself, I have to manage my own expectations too.
I have also my own limitations.
I reminded myself of my strengths and weaknesses.
I have times when I am not as resilient as I thought myself to be.
I don't know how I could navigate out of this mess.
I will try.
To the best I can, with the resources I have.
As the person I am.
So let me borrow a scripted line from a chick movie I saw long time before.
"You will never be a size 5..."
Hell.
I just make sure I be the sexiest size 10 as I can be.
Today.
26 Nov 2008.
4pm Singapore time.
I am back.
4 comments:
"No matter what they say or feel, Words can't bring you down", says Christina A. Seriously, I don't know much about you but, I know you are a person. You are cutting down your weights because you wanna get healthier and not into someone's size. You do things because it's good for yourself and maybe to others. At the end of the day, you are great guy. I am saying it and I mean it. :) take care and hope to seeya in KL.
great to hear u really putting the past to rest ^^
all the best in your new carrier
if u can do it in LCK
u can do at other place as well
once a captain always a captain
it doesn't matter wat size u are
u are who u are ^^
just be comfortable with urself
once happy alway happy =Þ
Ps: u still remember who am i am haha
sir wanna do DO check ma?
of course Han I still remb you la.
Enjoy the Cape no.7 show :)
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